184th post
today chinese test
ciyu&mingyanjinju was rather easy
compre de summary sucks
dun feel like going home today
cos i hate my family
but still i went home
i hav this though while revising today
just one day
i'll either eat the whole bottle of sleeping pills
&never wake up
or i'll just jump down from my bedroom
i really cant stand them anymore
i love my daddy
cos he's the only one talking to me in the family
&showing care to me
the worst thing was that
i never did anything wrong
den they juz angry for no reason
& juz some misunderstanding
fine dun talk den dun talk lor
as if i want to talk to them
i seriously want run away from home
but i gt nowhere to go
if i have one
i wont hesitate to run away
&&i'm seriously this time
cos i dun want to stay in this family
whereby i feel so left out
with only my daddy to care for me
i dun want to cry alone in my bedroom anymore
afraid to cry out loud
cos i dun want them to think that i've lose
&i cant live without them
i dun think i can take it anymore
i really feel like dying....


taggies reply will be done tmr