212th post

i hate my family
i hate him
why cant they just give me peace?
i know i am the one who started it
but i was in a joking manner
u dont understand
and u make things worse
u made me blame mayself for doing all those things
u made me cry again and again
u make the house having the dead silent
why cant u be not so sensitive?
why cant u not always being so rebellious?
then things would have been better
i know i'm wrong at first too
but i didnt talk back
i kept my mouth shut
unlike u
u made everyone unhappy
but i'm putting not all the blame on u
i'm just blaming myself for everything
i shouldnt have asked her to do it for me
i should have did it myself
i should have walked away when u told me to
for now i want to run away
never come back to this house
i'm not feeling happy here
if i disappear
u all will not get into quarrels as much
since i'm the cause
i feel guilty of being in here
so why must i bother to stay?